In the past few days, there has been a very forwarded feeling of repression and guilt from my part towards everyone. now, i don't mean by any way or form that im going around crying over everything that crosses my path, but rather it somewhat seems that i do look like i am in the gutter, so people ask about my well being and stuff.
sometimes i do wonder what will be of my immediate future, the kind of future that most people know about with a very high degree of certainty. for it seems to me that in no respect i have ever held that confidence that others show towards their life in the short run. now more than ever i am without a certain path or course of action, nothing seems to work and definitely nothing seems to prevail in my life. blergh, i hate this, it blows big time. right now i can only hope to get out of this state of mind and move into one where i can feel good and make others feel good about me, until then i'll just surf around in this sea of nothingness that is my life.
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